The gray delirium

I see it, at a distance.
The gray delirium.
My essence compounded.
Estranged.
Compounded by multiple eyes.
Estranged by a greater "Me".

My voice is gone.
A silent shriek remains.
A glowing confidence.
Unaware, vain, distant.

I wondered once.
I wonder constantly.
Am I out of it..
Touch.

Am I the obelisk?
Am I a stone statue?
Unmoved
Bewildered.
A relic.
Hardened by time.
Fragile.

Topple me.
Drop me
Break me.
To find out.